blog 21: fear
Tonight as I was baking, cleaning, and wrapping presents at 12 am I ran into some very old gravy from thanksgiving. Gross! I know. I had to take the bag of moldy sauce outside to the garage bins which were on the side of the road for trash pick up. As I walked outside I noticed how quiet it was, even a little eerie…I continued looking around for murderers, loose dogs and “aliens” I just kept an eye out, you know? as I walked through the side gate I looked out into the dark backyard I stood there for awhile and felt my mind start to wander. I don’t know if you think like me but I was like what if a man comes out or something is there. We can do that right? Let our mind get away with all this crazy nonsense really.
As these thoughts came to my mind I felt a sense of confidence that nothing would happen . NO fear gripped me at all.
You see before I was saved I had fear all inside me. And I remember wondering why?? What am I so afraid of? I was scared of the dark , I was afraid of showering when no one was home, that a murderer would come kill me. I was afraid of hanging my hand off the bed because something might grab me, I was afraid of leaving my closet door open because something could be in there, I was afraid of going into stores because I might see someone and have to actually talk. THAT fear caused so much anxiety in me it was hard to do life sober. I was just a young girl full of fear all the time.
As I walked back into my house the Holy Spirit quickened me to this psalm…
Psalms 121:1-8 ERV
“I look up to the hills, but where will my help really come from? My help will come from the Lord, the Creator of heaven and earth. He will not let you fall. Your Protector will not fall asleep. Israel’s Protector does not get tired. He never sleeps. The Lord is your Protector. The Lord stands by your side, shading and protecting you. The sun cannot harm you during the day, and the moon cannot harm you at night. The Lord will protect you from every danger. He will protect your soul. The Lord will protect you as you come and go, both now and forever!”
My heart is so full as I read this. The Lord is really with me and if you have faith and believe He is with you too! In this day there is so much to be fearful of, I get it! All these drones and orb sightings can start to fill us with fear, maybe even fearing the end times BUT we have to be confident in the CREATOR! As parents we can fear for babies and start to think, what if this or what if that. BUT what will living in fear do for us? Being afraid all the time?
Just like this psalms says my strength comes from the Creator! Who made the mountains who made heaven and earth! He MADE THEM. He created it all and He watches over me and you so why be afraid?? Of what??
Life is too short short to live in fear. About anything! About the future, the past, kids, marriage, church, orbs etc. Do NOT allow fear to grip you!
Tonight I’m praying that whoever reads this would read that Psalms over and over till it takes root in the heart and makes its way up to your mind in the name of Jesus. I pray that you would KNOW the Creator and KNOW that He watches over you, to not fear but have strength in the name of Jesus.
love you friends ONE LOVE
